I have a dream. . . .

I do. I really do have a dream. I am not nearly as eloquent as Dr. King, and I don't expect to be able to write anything that is as profound or as powerful as his "I have a dream speach". Which by the by, I think should be required memorization and recitation material just like the preamble and bill of rights. . . . lets see, that was like 16 years ago. . . .

"We the people, in order to form a more perfect union, establish justice, insure domestic tranquility, provide for the common defense, promote the general welfare and secure the blessings of liberty for ourselves and our posterity, hereby do ordain and establish this Constitution of the United States of America. "

Not bad, I'm gonna go and see how well I remembered it. . . . back in a minute. . . . . holy crap dude. The memory is apparently workin it out. I wasn't right on, but c'mon. . . . I'd get the A+ just on longevity alone. That rocks. . . . Mrs. Correro would be so proud. Here it is as written in the actual Constitution. . . .

"We the people of the United States, in order to form a more perfect union, establish justice, insure domestic tranquility, provide for the common defense, promote the general welfare, and secure the blessings of liberty to ourselves and our posterity, do ordain and establish this Constitution for the United States of America."

Anyway, I got off topic. My dream. I have been given the dream to accomplish something that I don't think I can do. Oh, I think it's possible. I am just not fully equiped to accomplish this goal yet. I have a good start, but I don't know if I will be able to do it. For one, I don't know if it is possible, I just think it is. Then there is the practical side. Is it practical, will it be what you think it will be. Is it a practicable solution to the problem, or is it some delusion of grandeur/pipe dream. There is the kicker, I could create what I am supposed to create in a couple of weeks. But to re-invent the wheel for a different application, for a niche that has very specific limitations and the same basic needs. That is what I don't know is possible, I just think I can figure it out. Insecurities and self doubt are so fun to deal with (read sarcasm here)

I ultimately know I will achieve this dream, because I believe this is why (one of the reasons) I am here on earth. That scares the hell out of me. Let me repeat that. That scares the hell out of me. Why? Well, I have a lot of dreams. I guess I now have a purpose. Do you understand. . . . the magnitude, the responsibility, the pressure. To have a dream is one thing, a purpose now. . . . that is an entirely different ball of wax. If you don't ever reach your dream, yeah it sucks, but it was a long shot anyway. It was just a dream, it wasn't really real anyway. If you don't achieve your purpose. . . . wow! Abject failure. You did not do what you were here to do. You are a failure of the highest magnitude. I firmly believe that God equips us for everything that we encounter. He never gives us more than we can take. . . . if we lean on him.

So, here's the thing. I have or will be provided with, everything I need to achieve the purpose I have been given. I am set up to achieve success. . . . but success is not guaranteed. If I fail (I refuse to fail) then it will be because of my own shortcomings or inability. It's all me. I can't do this on my own, I will have to learn more, trial and error until a design and later working model are built. I will need help both in the design and construction of my model. The subsequent revision/redesign/modifications. The testing, the marketing, the mass production. Holy Crap is this seemingly overwhelming. Deep breath. . . . . one step at a time. . . . . baby steps. . . . . . I'll keep you updated on the progress.

Oh, and I can't really tell you specifically what it is, there will be patents and proprietary processes involved so until I get that stuff worked out, it'll have to remain mum. But I will say that it is going to have worldwide application and impact, potentially. Not to put any more undue pressure on myself. Oh, and I have to do this on my own time, with a wife and kid, and full time job. God's grace is sufficient.

There, I said it. It's real now. Other people will ask me how it's going. I can't run away and pretend it is not for me to do. I have accountablity. . . . step one is complete. Step two, initial design to start immediately (actually be written out instead of remaining a concept in my head, calculations done, specifications developed, plans drawn). Step three, build a working model for testing.