An Analogy

Hi there people. . . . and maybe non-people. Is two months too long to go between posts? I was thinking that I needed to get in gear and post about some of the things that have been running through my vast grassland of a mind. The problem is that if the posts get out of my sight, I lose them in the savannah. Oh, there are signs that the are still out there. Living, breathing, growing of their own accord. I just don't know quite how to catch them again.

It's like the nice landscaped zoo that I call a mind has turned into a wildlife park with no interior fences. So, a little baby zebra post comes to life and wanders into the high grass to be lost from sight. I have no idea what happens then. I mean, I've ear tagged the little fella and on a few, I've even put a radio transmitter to be able to locate it again. I'm pretty sure that more than one of them are now far too wild for me to catch, short of a tranquiler dart, and tame to something that could be readable and enjoyable. A few, no doubt, have succumbed to the other wildlife that roams about in my mind. There are lions and tigers and bears (I'll leave the "oh my" to you) and the occassional pack of wolves or hyenas. THere are even some ferrets, stoats, weasels and badgers running around. Really, there are animals in there that would never be together other than in a zoo. Some were extinct thousands of years ago, but they are living in my head. Some never existed anywhere else. . . . . like the crocagater, the hippomapatamasaurus, and the platapus (I'm sure you think we went to the moon too. . . . . pfffft)

It's a wildlife park, not an African Safari park. . . . . some of my animals don't get along (lions and tigers) . . . . or tigers and anything else. Really, it's several ecosystems thrown together to see what is going to be strong enough to survive and flourish. Clearly, not everything I have going on is going to make it. The Rabbit population is highly endangered at this point as is the mink and a few rodent species. I really am worried that some of the animals that I'd like to keep around are going to be reduced to a non-viable species before too long. I know I don't need those particular species to have a bountiful ecosystem. It is a hodgepodge of things right now and really, there are several species that are filling the same role and competing for the same sustaining elements. I guess that is just survival of the species, and the law of the wild and all that, but it is a little frightening.

I mean, as the only resident in my mind - for the most part anyway - I have eliminated or am in the process of eliminating all detrimental human contact so things can flourish as they were intended. But how do I get out of the way and let that hyena (which I dislike and think is ugly and unpredictable) to eat all the defenseless lambs? Realistically, the hyena provides a much needed service. They winnow the herd, they clear up carcasses that could breed disease and decay and there aren't too many of them. Plus, they are pretty easy for me to avoid, so they pose no real danger to me. Sheep on the other hand, don't really do much in the way of good for the environment. Yes, they trim the grass, fertilize and inspire new growth, but a ton of other grazers do that too. Basically, lambs are cute and playful and make me smile, but the hyena takes care of the natural order. Should I interfere with the natural order of things to impose my will, or should I let things be as God intended them? Y'know what I mean?

I think I am at a cross roads. Do I choose the wide path or the narrow way. I know which one I SHOULD choose. I just don't know if I can. . . . completely.